I loved so many different ways and so many different hearts
Yet alone is where I lay tonight
No regrets I say aloud but fall asleep with countless what-ifs
Being a wife has always been in my grasp but never a true will
Blame it on the things I've seen or the the inability to distinguish the different of love and in love
Called player to mistress to just plain complicated all the long just longing the label of being the One
Chased by the ones that are already caught ...overlooked by the ones whose not ready to put in the energy.. and loved by the ones that needs to be loved back too soon...
Genetically created to always get looks when I enter a room ... Intelligently developed to arouse the most noble hunters
Smart enough to see through a liar .. . yet lone for a touch to overlook it
Like a faucet Im hot and cold with emotions stability... One minute I need to be held the next I demand space
Have I been in love .. yes ... unfortunately I haven't a clue to which one was which
I'm not confused .. just in tune.. to the reality of love when your heart is distorted...
Will I be that wife one day... maybe if it's destined to be... so I lay my head down to sleep and with all the faith I have left for love
I ask for strength and clarity and the ability to stand alone til the purest heart can find me...
Yeah I loved alot and been loved back.. but I'm a high stakes person always have been.. and though the odds are against me
I'll exchange all the could had been a good marriage for that one that sees me and only me and picks up my heart beat without a skip from theirs...
Fairytale .. Maybe.. But until I get to the neverending part.. my journeys teaches me Life...